A Year Loving On

I'm going crazy...
no... for once, its not about work...

aaahh.... he's... absolutely charming....

shoots.. wish I didnt come go to the SP AJ outing...

soft spoken, good looking, intelligent....
one look, and i couldn help grinning... my hypothalmus (is that wad its called) was going into overdrive...

haha.... AJs like that rarely exist nowadays.... good looking is one thing, to be intelligent is another...
so many AJs nowadays rattle off, quite brainlessly... haha.... thats what i feel.... the femme side is slowly merging with their cognitive ego...

but anywayz... most importantly, he speaks english ABSOULUTELY nicely!!
ok... it isnt a good enough phrase, i'll think of better ones... but ya... you should get the meaning...

tell me this is a crush.... i think its more like retribution...
coz we're like a kilometer apart from each other in school...



anywayz... i shall stop thinking about this stuff! and I'll go to sleep like he asked me too..... *i'm also sleepy lah*

-------- AUTHOR: ANDREW DATE: 9/03/2005 12:29:00 AM -----

i cant really put today into words... except that it was extraordinary...

i thought this day would never come...
i think i gave up...

but well, fate proved me wrong again..........

i dont wanna pinch myself... I'm so afraid that I might be dreaming....


haha


today will be a day I flipped the page of my life once more, and on a new chapter, write another story...
how long will it be, I do not know...

.. and I dont wanna know....

thinking of it can just hurt so much....


I just wanna be in his arms again...
A few steps away from the mrt, I suddenly felt an overwhelming sense of loneliness...

my paced shortened and my heart raced....

is this for real??

my handphone beeped jus in time before i when into my psycho self again... it was him! =)

haha... I'm obsessed...

joking

i really do love him...

his fuzzy hair, his cheekily irritating smile, his forever smiling eyes, his .... his warm hugs...

he's open, but conservative to a cute extent too...
haha...

=)

Still havn't change much... lol..... jus got to know you better.....

i miss you...

one chapter closes, another opens... I dont want this to have an end...

-------- AUTHOR: ANDREW DATE: 11/14/2005 10:24:00 PM -----


Yeah... You guessed correctly... The first quote was the entry when I first met Dominic...

Reading it kinda brought a smile to me... coz it shows that I liked him from the very first time I met him.... It was just a childish crush, coz of his boyish looks and impish smile...

It was the last AJ outing that I wanted to go out with... and I only agreed to go because Leonard persauded me to accompany him to go coz its his first time...

I never believed that the relationship could work out... firstly because I had already lost all hope in AJ relationships.. and secondly because he was really far apart from me in school..

moreoever... I thought it was just a crush, that would amount to nothing...


Events unfolded as a friendship seemed to eviscerate... nobody betrays and break the heart of the person I love...


I guess I lost a friend, coz I never wanted to speak or hear him again...


no. thats not dominic. its the person who hurt dominic.


Its only 3 months later, 14 november... when Dominic agreed to try out...

yeah. I was skeptical...
I couldnt believe it could work out.

You can't blame me... with my past in shambles...


the bottomline is... we survived.

WE SURVIVED.

And we're still surviving... through the hard times, and the good times... we held each other's hand and never let go...

one year ahead...

i wonder what lies ahead...

Will I be able to look at you with the same deep love that I have still in another year?
Or 10 years?

Will I be able to hold your hand and rest my head upon your shoulders?..



one year..


we defied time, we defied law, we defied thought...

nothing can seperate us apart... till the day I see you in heaven, I will protect, guard and love you with all my might...
This is one chapter that I have opened, and the only chapter that I never ever want to close...

My love.

when the world stopped spinning, it seemed like only me and you were left....
- 11/22/2005, Andrew.

i know you want me to promise you that i will never leave you ...but like i say that promises are meant to be broken in a way there for i will never make a promise but will make a vow that will cross my heart .......
- 12/14/2005, Dominic